Post One

The main character Tessa in the novel Before I Die by Jenny Downham has cancer and her reaction to the new's is pretty standard. If I found out the same new's I would have the same thoughts she did at first of what the world is going to be like without 'myself' in it. Thinking about all I would miss and what I wouldn’t be able to do. Instead of sitting in bed and moping about it how she seems to be, I would go out and start living with everything I'd have left. Her reaction to the new's makes sense maybe its different actually knowing you have it, but it would suck to sit in bed all day, not eating, and not doing much of anything. It seems like Tessa is more scared of the real world knowing she has cancer, she wants to be adventurous but would really rather be in bed. Tessa makes a statement to the readers when she writes on her wall, “[I] want to feel the weight of a boy on top of me.” (1) This is a start to a list she is making and wants to accomplish; it will let her feel more alive in the time she has left.She soon accomplishes this act by going out to the nightclub with her friend Zoey, and meeting task one. The guy she meets's is not her type but she trys to feel confident stating:"I've always known i'd be good at kissing. I've read all the magazines." (19) Making herself feel like its okay, and that this is what she wants to happen. I feel her actions are coming from a place in mind which wants to explore. Having the chance to be in the moment with any guy is something everyone should experience.